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Okay. Monday, June 3, my dog-Shellbee-had to be put to sleep. I am 22 (23 August 24), and my mom and I had gotten her when she was 2-and she was with us for 12 years, so I was attached to her-I lost my best friend.
This has hit me VERY hard, as I never got a chance to say goodbye as I was working at O.A.T.S (yes, it is still running even after Nancy's death-her dream lives on!)
My mom had taken her to the vet that day because she had gotten sicker and was refusing to eat. She had lost about 80% of her body weight and her back legs were giving out and she would literally collapse, so it was her time.
Not only that, but I was leading Spencer-a horse at O.A.T.S that weighs about 1,200 pounds. On a muddy trail, he stepped on my right foot and put all of his weight on it. I'm lucky the ground was muddy so my foot sank into the ground when he stepped on it-otherwise my foot may have been broken.
As it is, I STILL have a hoof-shaped bruise on my foot.
This has hit me VERY hard, as I never got a chance to say goodbye as I was working at O.A.T.S (yes, it is still running even after Nancy's death-her dream lives on!)
My mom had taken her to the vet that day because she had gotten sicker and was refusing to eat. She had lost about 80% of her body weight and her back legs were giving out and she would literally collapse, so it was her time.
Not only that, but I was leading Spencer-a horse at O.A.T.S that weighs about 1,200 pounds. On a muddy trail, he stepped on my right foot and put all of his weight on it. I'm lucky the ground was muddy so my foot sank into the ground when he stepped on it-otherwise my foot may have been broken.
As it is, I STILL have a hoof-shaped bruise on my foot.
Cal Kestis Lightsaber form theory
So, I read that Cal made up his Lightsaber form since "he never finished his training".... but they didn't say what Lightsaber Form(s) he was training in. Even in the first encounter with the Second Sister, she mentions that "I recognize that stance" when Cal positions himself to battle. Now, I am going to take what I know about the pre-Disney Star Wars Lightsaber forms and theorize the forms he mixes to create his unique form. Form 1: Shii-Cho. This HAS to be one of the forms Cal used to create his form. Form 1 is taught to younglings before they become Padawans when they first make their Lightsaber. Form 1 are the basics of combat, and the building blocks used to make other forms. Form 2: Masashi. This is POSSIBLY something Cal has dabbled with to add to his form. It requires firm footwork, and focuses on parries and thrusts over slashes; like modern fencing. While no master of the form, when in combat Fallen Order wants you to parry over simply blocking; especially when it
Jedi: Fallen Order HELP!!
So I beat the game and started new game plus. Continuing to search for items I missed. I went and upgraded my lightsaber on Ilum....and returned to Dathomir....and now, my game on Xbox One is glitched. It takes me to Jedi Training with my Master without the obstacles spawning or letting me go away. I cannot report it, and trying to start ANOTHER new game plus makes it impossible to got to customization! HELP!
Goodbye
From birth, my journey has not been easy. Those with Autosm are not always well off. But things kept getting crazier and crazier. It all came crashing down in 2016, when PTSD from abuse I suffered at the hands of teachers. Friends I made left me cause of it. Things seemed better cause of one friend. Troy Groomes, who uses his birth name at Fanfiction.net and goes by Dragoflightleader#9577 on Discord. He gave me hope. Only now, I find out, that said hope never existed. He gave me a goal to keep me focused on, yet that goal never appeared. Now, that I am questioning the validity of said goal, he avoids me. Now that the only thing giving me hope is gone, I feel that I have nothing for me left. As such, I feel that I have nothing left to continue this accursed existence. As such, I am leaving all my works unfinished, and account active as long as the programming let's it. However, I will be distancing myself from everyone. That way, when I do commit suicide, it hopefully will not
COVID-19 Update
Hey everybody. One of the Co-Founders here. I am letting people know that this Group WILL NOT be shutting down. However, I DO NOT have computer access during this COVID-19 Crisis. The computer in my house is used most often by my mother to do work when not at her job... And she works in a hospital. So. I have stopped using the computer for the time being to stay healthy. I will try to find art and stories to add to the group. I encourage you to do the same or make same! Stay safe!
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I am sorry for your loss. I had lost a dog a few years ago as well lost many other pets.